From time to time, I get the pleasure of stepping back and allowing God to speak through my children to someone other than myself...like...MY WIFE!!!
Janelle and I have been on a journey over the last 10+ years pursuing God's heart for the nations. The road has been long and frustrating as we have attempted to walk through doors that we thought were open but were really closed, doors that had been open but that got shut in our face halfway through the threshold, or else doors that we probably knew were closed in the first place but that we hoped we could break open if we ran at them full force. We've come to the conclusion that the dream God has placed in our hearts to spread the Kingdom overseas really comes from Him, but that the timing for whatever reason isn't quite right. In the meantime, we meet the need to travel by doing lame things that make us feel like we have moved out of the country - we rearrange furniture. Ha. That sounded even more lame when I read it back to myself than it did when I thought it in my head. Sometimes we paint walls or switch all our bedrooms around. We've even been known to buy a new house, live in it for a year or two, and flip for a profit.
For the most part, God seems to bless our endeavor to cope with the burden He has placed in us. But every now and then, restlessness takes over that is clearly not from Him and we find ourselves struggling with discontent.
This morning, while lying in bed, Janelle decided we should move - again. I suggested she check her heart and explore whether or not she is feeling fulfilled by the Lord. Right about then, Keziah came to our bedroom and wanted to show us a letter she wrote for us while we were sleeping in (or trying to). I took a picture, just to rub it in...
Word for the day: Change for the sake of change will only bring temporary satisfaction. You can't run from discontent. Find God everywhere - including the mundane.
"I love you Daddy and Mommy. You are the ants in your pants mommy. Daddy you are the best singer ever Daddy."

Oh man, I love this!
ReplyDeleteI've been feeling the same way lately and especially this morning. A mixture of lack of direction, fear and restlessness. Thanks for the redirect Kez. Its true, I am the ants in my own pants, so help me God!